I’m sure I’ve mentioned this before on at least ONE of my other blogesque sites but my boyfriend from last post? We’re through. I ended it a couple weeks ago and then learned that he was flirting with other girls behind my back. -_-’ I can sure pick winners, eh?

Anyway, I’m also sure that the only people who read this either don’t live around me, don’t know who I am, or (hopefully) respect my privacy enough to not tell what I’m putting out for the entire world to see if they look hard enough.

I have no idea how horribly this can go… Oh well. *deep breath* If it sounds familiar, just ignore it.

I was recently in my school play as my standard “bit part” job. (guess that’s all I’m good at.) I developed a bit of a crush on one of my cast mates during the entire rehearsal process. It sucks because I know that my crush can never be actualized. AND we have 2 classes together on the same day. All I can do is catch fleeting glimpses and then stop staring before it gets awkward.

Not too bad, right? Well… She’s straight. Yep. SHE. My first tangible crush on a girl in a while. By tangible I mean I actually know the person. It’s also the first MEGA crush that I’ve had that is disappointing at the same time because, again, lack of actualization potential.

We are also two different breeds of girl. She’s dainty while I’m awkward. She’s cute while I’m (somewhat) butch. She’s able to work her curves while I hide them under baggy shirts. She’s a soprano while I’m a female tenor. She is beautiful, confident, and talented while I am…… not.

And the worst problem? I’m getting deeper into this. I don’t want to say I’m falling in love with her but…. the crush is definitely getting stronger. I have no idea what to do about it! I can’t just go up and tell her. That’d be awkward. I might be able to talk one of my friends to going up and asking but that’d be awkward as well. I’m not usually like this but I’m completely stumped!

I might as well give you the initials. R.H. People who know who I am should know who this is. And with that, I bid you all Adieu.