Let’s start off with “Hey! Is Venus really updating again? So soon?” Well, since this is a new post, yes. Yes I am updating so soon. It’s because I have a good reason.

It has been a couple years since I had discovered that I was bisexual. Today I went over to my cousins house and she had a friend over. I took one of my video games over and just played it for most of the time I was there. The GameCube was in my other cousins room, which was right next door. Here I was, just playing my game, when my cousins friend (who is a girl and about…. I’ll say 14) just sits down next to me. Watching me play. Left a couple minutes later. I thought nothing of it.

Few minutes later she came back, my cousin in tow. She sat down, cousin sat down. A few minutes and shifts into more comfortable positions later, my cousin was in relatively the same spot but I was lying on my side and her friend (who I shall call Lexi from here on) was lying in pretty much the same exact way. Directly behind me. I thought nothing of it (much) until my cousin mentioned it. That’s when things got interesting. By interesting, I mean funny to them and awkward to me.

It started with innocent comments and then got to some advanced things that I’m pretty sure only I understood. I got embarrassed and I think I blushed a little bit. It was a bit awkward, blushing like that at something a friend said but, that’s what happened. I played along, as to not hint that it was making me uncomfortable/a little turned on (yikes!)  but it did make things awkward and I stopped playing and left a little after that before I said something I’d regret later. Like something too sexual. Or revealing I was bi before I really wanted to. But… this is it. It just set.

Before I wasn’t 100% sure if I was bi, but now… I know for a fact that I am bisexual. I like boys and girls. I know that this will cause some friction with my family, it already has, and I’m fine with that. The only thing I’m somewhat worried about is when I need to tell my grandparents. One set is extremely religious, another has lost a son, in part due to his being gay, and the third…. I really don’t know. I think the third would be the most accepting.

Even though it will make my life harder and make some things different, it’s a part of me and who I am. Things will get harder but I am ready to face it with the best of them.

Anyway, that ends that. I’m going to sleep.

EDIT: It’s like…. 5:30 and I realized that I never mention Lexi in this post after saying I’ll call her Lexi from that point on…. hehe.